An Ode To Existence

FINALS ARE OVAH!!!

'nuf said.

sounds: jars of clay - worlds apart
food for thought: the book of leviticus - God

there is a light at the end of the tunnel...

is it freedom calling my name? or the train of academia about to run me into the ground? haha, no matter, in a little over twelve hours, i will be finished with the semester. between now and then, i have to write a 6-10 page paper about the parables of the synoptic gospels. yeh, i'm mos def ready for this year to be over.

tomorrow is gonna be cool. me, wes, chucko and a yet to be identified person are heading over to raleigh tomorrow evening for the ribfest. wes' pops had four tickets and gave them to us since he's not going to be able to make it up here this weekend. i was hoping i'd be able to make it over to raleigh this weekend to see my g-burg peeps before i go home, so this is perfect. thanks God :) i know i'll at least get to see kelly, which is cool cuz i haven't seen her in like...two or three weeks, hehe. i miss people easily, especially when they're that close to my heart. it's gonna be fun times :)

kat sent me a link to this 'interview with God' movie. it's pretty cool. got some breathtaking pictures and some good words to live by. man, how cool would it be to really interview God, and be able to show it to the people of the world? just imagine the changes that would occur immediately. man....that would be powerful stuff. but that's not how He wanted to do things. instead, we're supposed to be His representatives here on earth. His p.r. department if you will.

All this is from God, who through Christ reconciled to us himself and gave us the ministry of reconciliation; that is, in Christ God was reconciling the world to himself, not counting their trespasses against them, and entrusting to us the message of reconciliation. Therefore, we are ambassoadors for Christ, God making his appeal through us. We implore you on behalf of Christ, be reconciled to God. For our sake he made him to be sin who knew no sin, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.
~2 Cor 5:18-21

it's a good thing He's so forgiving, cuz i'm a poor poor ambassador, and if this were the real world, i'd be out of a job right now. amazing grace, what a sweet sweet sound :) alrighty, enough procrastination, i'm dust. pz out and God bless!

sounds: caedmon's call - not enough
food for thought: the gospel according to mark - God

and another one bites the dust!

that applies to my life in like a bajillion different ways right now. but that's ok, cuz i'm almost done. another final just bit the dust today when i turned in take home exam #3 out of 4 at noon. all i can say is boo on the holocaust! boo! boo! mmmmmboooooooo!!!!!

as much as that mey (or may, whatever) scare people, it was quite relieving, so it stays. wow....it's sad that you're so lazy that you'd rather type in the correct spelling of a word after the mispelled version rather than reach all the way to the corner and press backspace a few times. i've really sunk to a new low folks :P

so another one of my cams buds has taken the dive into blogger procrastination! everybody, i present to you kathryn bermoy, one of the coolest girls i know :) i've known kat for....i dunno, a long time. she dates my boy dave....and she probably wouldn't appreciate me telling her life story for her, so i'll just stop there.

so i'm thinking about doing something daring...and i could easily wind up embarrassing myself (in fact, it's probably the most likely outcome), but the possible reward is well worth it, methinks. so....we'll see if i'm brave enough to take the plunge, and no, i'm not going to explain this in plain english. you just get to sit there and wonder what on earth i'm talking about, haha!

well, ima take a nap cuz i only got three hours of sleep. perhaps then i will be able to write something intelligent. until then, God bless.

sounds: enter the worship circle: second circle - always beautiful
food for thought: spiritual leadership - j. oswald sanders

this is getting ridiculous

you know you're procrastinating when you read your own stinkin' profile!!! seriously, what is the deal? i was so good the first half of finals week. now i can't seem to bring myself to even open up word and get started. ok, i've actually already done that, but still. i'm just not in the mood to write. but i need to. so i will force myself to. boo on the holocaust and poorly thought up/designed questions!

random thought: does anyone else find it frustrating when....no, nevermind. methinks i would never hear the end of it if i posted this. my feeling is that i might be able to concentrate better if i got some stuff out in the open but....not right now :P thanks God, for returning my sanity :) ok, back to the paper. i will deal with my quandries at a later date. pz out and God bless.

sounds: alana davis - can't find my way home
food for thought: history 104.03 (the holocaust) final examination - profs koonz & estes (i hope they never read this)

i am in dire need of a motivational speaker

two finals down, two more to go. come on jason, you can do it! i SO do not want to write this next paper. i just don't know where to start. my classmates and i have come to the unanimous conclusion that they are, by far, the stupidest, most irrelevant questions of the year. but i still have to answer them, so i guess i better get moving, eh?

man, argentina is weighing on my mind big time. i've got basically a week to come up with $3,000 or i can't go. i know God can and will bring it in if it's His will that i go, and i really think this is what He wants me to do with my summer. if not, i'll deal. i'll be a little disappointed, but if He doesn't want me down there, i don't want to be down there. i guess we'll find out in a week, won't we?

hmmm, there must be a reason i'm not inspired to write anything here at the moment. perhaps that's God telling me to get off my butt and write this paper. and so i shall.

Answer me when I call to you
O my righteous God.
Give me relief from my distress;
be merciful to me and hear my prayers

How long, O men, will you turn my glory into shame?
How long will you love delusions and false gods?
Know that the Lord has set apart the godly for himself;
the Lord will hear when I call him.
In your anger do not sin;
when you are on your beds,
search your hearts and be silent.
Offer right sacrifices
and trust in the Lord.

Many are asking, "Who can show us any good?"
Let the light of your face shine upon us, O Lord.
You have filled my heart with greater joy
than when their grain and new wine abound.
I will lie down and sleep in peace,
for you alone, O Lord,
make me dwell in safety
~Psalm 4

pz out and God bless.

sounds: jennifer knapp - light of the world (i love this song!!!)
food for thought: survival in auschwitz - primo levi

the houston texans are my new favorite team

behind the bears, of course. but dude, check this: former cams student chester pitts (c/o 97) was drafted by the houston texans as an offensive lineman in the second round of the draft. this is not only amazing because he went to my school (with no football team), but he must be pretty daggum good if they picked him in the second round. and they said nerds can't be athletic. when i was a freshman and chester was a 6'3" 250 pound junior, i saw him chasing some dude across the lunch area, and he just hurdled these bushes like it was nothing. i'm glad i wasn't the guy he was chasing :P this just goes to show that us math and science kids are good for more than working for nasa or starting our own internet companies ;) summer olympics, here i come!

well, a few of us are gonna see a durham bulls game this afternoon, so i'm gonna try to get some reading done before then. pz out and God bless.

sounds: green day - prosthetic head
food for thought: the art of war in world history - gérard chaliand

you cant stop me, you can only hope to contain me!

it's been too long since i last posted. apologies to my apparently burgeoning audience! :) after a few days of no sleep and constant delerium, things are on the up and up. i somehow managed to complete all the term papers i had due, plus an extra one that i thought was due last tuesday but, in reality, is not due for another couple of days. chalk another one up to my retarded inner being. but hey, at least it's already done, that's one less paper i have to worry about this week, and i already have more than enough to satisfy the writer in me.

so, like i said, the last week was pretty rough (the first half at least) but things are peachy keen at the moment. we had our bi-annual cru picnic at the waters' farm, and i shot a gun for the very first time in my entire life. yes, i know it's amazing that i could come from ghetto long beach and never have shot a gun, but it's true! we shot skeet with at .20 guage shotgun, and i even hit some of them. fun times!

last night was just chillin. i went with mojo to raleigh and we hung out with some of his future slovakia peeps. i know, i'm going to argentina, but i might as well be on their project with all the people i know going. so we went to the olive garden with lynne (campbell), holden (meredith) and matt, ben and erica (all from state, and yes, that's my erica from gburg!). i think i ruined our olive garden experience cuz when the waitress started naming off the italian soups [in italian] that came with my meal, i told her i had no idea what she was saying, and she gave me this evil look, and she wasn't too friendly the rest of the night. i dunno, i didn't think i was being rude. how was i supposed to understand the italian?? anyway, after that we went to this christian coffeehouse in raleigh called the vineyard and got some hot chocolate (or caffeine for those like holden who couldn't make it through the night without it), and after that we went back to ben's apartment and chilled for a while, talking about random stuff. i really enjoyed last night cuz 1) i got to see erica, and that's always a good thing 2) i got to meet new people, and that too is a good thing, and 3) the whole night was just chillin. nothing frantic or active was going on, we just enjoyed each others' company. i haven't had a night like that in a while. just what i needed to start off finals week.

i suppose that's enough for now. the reading calls! pz out and God bless.

sounds: tom petty & the heartbreakers - last dance with mary jane
food for thought: the beautyful ones are not yet born - ayi kwei armah