Monday, June 28, 2004
*tear*
the summer project left this morning...last night i found out that i wouldn't be able to visit them in b.a. after they get back from iguazu as i had been planning to because the staff decided it would be unfair to the argentine students if i got to go see people in b.a. but they weren't allowed to come. i'm definitely more than a little disappointed about that as much because i wasn't really preparing myself to say goodbye today since i thought i'd have another chance on friday as because i didn't really get to say them the way i would have liked since all the argentine students were there as well and it was a bit of a madhouse this morning. but there wasn't/isn't really anything that i could have changed about the situation, so i suppose i have to deal with it and move on.
their (somewhat) sudden departure hit me a lot harder than i was expecting it to, and i found myself feeling some rather strong emotions that were different from anything i felt on the other projects that i was a part of as a student. i definitely didn't think it would be this hard to let go of the kids who came to work with me for six weeks, and the only thing that keeps me from feeling completely alone (not that any of them are purposely trying to abandon me, but my roomate went home for the week today as well) is the knowledge that God is here with me right now, and He will always be there. it's annoying/silly that i have to learn this lesson about depending on God rather than people for my comfort every year after a summer project, even ones that i'm not officially a member of. perhaps someday i will learn this lesson well enough to not be put through it again.
part of me wants to write more, but most of me wants to just go lie down, sort through my thoughts & emotions, and try to recuperate cuz right now i'm physically, mentally, emotionally, and every other way you can think of. as in any democracy (and for the sake of convenience), the majority rules, so i'll see y'all around. God bless.
symphonic melodies: dave matthews - grace is gone
brain eats: the journal
the summer project left this morning...last night i found out that i wouldn't be able to visit them in b.a. after they get back from iguazu as i had been planning to because the staff decided it would be unfair to the argentine students if i got to go see people in b.a. but they weren't allowed to come. i'm definitely more than a little disappointed about that as much because i wasn't really preparing myself to say goodbye today since i thought i'd have another chance on friday as because i didn't really get to say them the way i would have liked since all the argentine students were there as well and it was a bit of a madhouse this morning. but there wasn't/isn't really anything that i could have changed about the situation, so i suppose i have to deal with it and move on.
their (somewhat) sudden departure hit me a lot harder than i was expecting it to, and i found myself feeling some rather strong emotions that were different from anything i felt on the other projects that i was a part of as a student. i definitely didn't think it would be this hard to let go of the kids who came to work with me for six weeks, and the only thing that keeps me from feeling completely alone (not that any of them are purposely trying to abandon me, but my roomate went home for the week today as well) is the knowledge that God is here with me right now, and He will always be there. it's annoying/silly that i have to learn this lesson about depending on God rather than people for my comfort every year after a summer project, even ones that i'm not officially a member of. perhaps someday i will learn this lesson well enough to not be put through it again.
part of me wants to write more, but most of me wants to just go lie down, sort through my thoughts & emotions, and try to recuperate cuz right now i'm physically, mentally, emotionally, and every other way you can think of. as in any democracy (and for the sake of convenience), the majority rules, so i'll see y'all around. God bless.
symphonic melodies: dave matthews - grace is gone
brain eats: the journal
