Thursday, October 14, 2004
bleh
i have nothing of substance or worth to write at this moment. i just have the urge to post something for the sake of doing so. and so i do, because i can. usually that would be a pretty stupid reason for doing something. i could go stand in the middle of the street all day to see if i would get hit or if everyone would just drive around me. but that wouldn't be very smart. then again, posting something here hardly puts my life in danger....unless the MAN is secretly monitoring everything i do, in which case the fact that i just mentioned the MAN (twice now!) means i'm a dead man walking. so i might as well try out my argentine pedestrian [non-]survival theory. see? i told you i don't have anything worthwile right now. whatever.
i feel like complaining....just cuz i'm not in the best of moods. but one of the things that annoys me the most is when people whine. even if they have a legit reason. it's just not becoming. so nevermind that.
something is off, though i can't identify specifically what it might be. perhaps because i haven't talked to reb in forever (guaranteed to play into it at least some). maybe i'm just tired from this entire year and now that a pseudo vacation is in sight (though not really, cuz i still have to raise support again) my body is unconciously not continuously pumping much needed adrenaline through my veins anymore. it might be related to the fact that in two and a half weeks i'll be disembarking from a delta flight onto american soil, and after being away for so long, that's kinda freaky even though i'm really looking forward to it at the same time. i remember how lost and disconnected i felt after 6 weeks here on summer project back in 2002. i can't even begin to imagine how alienated i might/could/will feel after being gone for a year with no visitors from home. but at least i'll get to see cool people the whole time, and hopeflly they'll be gracious enough to forgive my broken english & the moments i slip into casteyankee (our version of spanglish, which i use at least a third of the time here, even with the other americans on our team).
i'm sure all that and a few other things have to do with my internal anguish (let's take a trip down memory lane to relive my hyperbolic teen angst years), but there's not much i can do about it @ the moment. that's probably the most frustrating part. reb was smart in realizing that guys are action oriented....and we hate having to sit around to wait a problem out, even if that's the only option. at least i do.
so that this doesn't end up being a complete downer, i voted today. that is to say, i spent like 2 hours online looking over all the explanations and pros/cons of the different state & county measures, and then i filled out my absentee ballot. tomorrow i will fax it in (one redeeming quality of being from california where my vote isn't exactly swinging the election) because i don't trust the argentine mail system to get it there by election day. i'm not sure i trust whoever is supposed to transfer my voting from the fax to wherever, but much like anything to do with politics, it's all about the lesser of two evils.
in this case, i think it's gotta be dubya (cue the hate from at least two continents) because he stands much closer to where i'm morally @ than kerry, which is incredible seeing as how kerry stands pretty much everywhere....or maybe nowhere. all semi-joking aside, i could not vote for someone who supports abortion, gay marriage, and the general ultra-liberal agenda that pretty much goes directly against what i believe to be good, true & biblical. but i'm gonna stop there cuz i could go on this tangent forever and i don't have the energy to do that at the moment.
there was something else following that train of thought, but i forgot it while i was thinking about it, isn't that amazing? or more likely a sign that i need to get to know my pillow a little more. before i do, let me as y'all to send up a prayer for one of my teammates. sarah's grams died suddenly last weekend and she flew home for the funeral (which was today) after only being here for about three weeks. she's supposed to be coming back here next wednesday i think, but while losing a loved one is never easy, it's even harder when you're far away, going through major life changes, and you can't be around family for whatever extended grieving might be necessary. hopefully, through the power of God, we as a team can be a sufficient support system for her when she gets back. so yeh, we got your back gup.
aite, this has gone on way too long. pz & Gb.
symphonic melodies: waterdeep - psalm 18
brain eats: angels & demons by dan brown (pretty much the exact same plot as da vinci code
i have nothing of substance or worth to write at this moment. i just have the urge to post something for the sake of doing so. and so i do, because i can. usually that would be a pretty stupid reason for doing something. i could go stand in the middle of the street all day to see if i would get hit or if everyone would just drive around me. but that wouldn't be very smart. then again, posting something here hardly puts my life in danger....unless the MAN is secretly monitoring everything i do, in which case the fact that i just mentioned the MAN (twice now!) means i'm a dead man walking. so i might as well try out my argentine pedestrian [non-]survival theory. see? i told you i don't have anything worthwile right now. whatever.
i feel like complaining....just cuz i'm not in the best of moods. but one of the things that annoys me the most is when people whine. even if they have a legit reason. it's just not becoming. so nevermind that.
something is off, though i can't identify specifically what it might be. perhaps because i haven't talked to reb in forever (guaranteed to play into it at least some). maybe i'm just tired from this entire year and now that a pseudo vacation is in sight (though not really, cuz i still have to raise support again) my body is unconciously not continuously pumping much needed adrenaline through my veins anymore. it might be related to the fact that in two and a half weeks i'll be disembarking from a delta flight onto american soil, and after being away for so long, that's kinda freaky even though i'm really looking forward to it at the same time. i remember how lost and disconnected i felt after 6 weeks here on summer project back in 2002. i can't even begin to imagine how alienated i might/could/will feel after being gone for a year with no visitors from home. but at least i'll get to see cool people the whole time, and hopeflly they'll be gracious enough to forgive my broken english & the moments i slip into casteyankee (our version of spanglish, which i use at least a third of the time here, even with the other americans on our team).
i'm sure all that and a few other things have to do with my internal anguish (let's take a trip down memory lane to relive my hyperbolic teen angst years), but there's not much i can do about it @ the moment. that's probably the most frustrating part. reb was smart in realizing that guys are action oriented....and we hate having to sit around to wait a problem out, even if that's the only option. at least i do.
so that this doesn't end up being a complete downer, i voted today. that is to say, i spent like 2 hours online looking over all the explanations and pros/cons of the different state & county measures, and then i filled out my absentee ballot. tomorrow i will fax it in (one redeeming quality of being from california where my vote isn't exactly swinging the election) because i don't trust the argentine mail system to get it there by election day. i'm not sure i trust whoever is supposed to transfer my voting from the fax to wherever, but much like anything to do with politics, it's all about the lesser of two evils.
in this case, i think it's gotta be dubya (cue the hate from at least two continents) because he stands much closer to where i'm morally @ than kerry, which is incredible seeing as how kerry stands pretty much everywhere....or maybe nowhere. all semi-joking aside, i could not vote for someone who supports abortion, gay marriage, and the general ultra-liberal agenda that pretty much goes directly against what i believe to be good, true & biblical. but i'm gonna stop there cuz i could go on this tangent forever and i don't have the energy to do that at the moment.
there was something else following that train of thought, but i forgot it while i was thinking about it, isn't that amazing? or more likely a sign that i need to get to know my pillow a little more. before i do, let me as y'all to send up a prayer for one of my teammates. sarah's grams died suddenly last weekend and she flew home for the funeral (which was today) after only being here for about three weeks. she's supposed to be coming back here next wednesday i think, but while losing a loved one is never easy, it's even harder when you're far away, going through major life changes, and you can't be around family for whatever extended grieving might be necessary. hopefully, through the power of God, we as a team can be a sufficient support system for her when she gets back. so yeh, we got your back gup.
aite, this has gone on way too long. pz & Gb.
symphonic melodies: waterdeep - psalm 18
brain eats: angels & demons by dan brown (pretty much the exact same plot as da vinci code
